"Be always at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each new year find you a better person."
The end of 2010. What an incredible year it has been. Dad spent all year working on home improvements--ceilings scraped, walls painted, baseboards trimmed, carpeting laid, pipes replaced, tile set...it's all so beautiful! It's as though we have a new home! And it was his way of not missing Kara so much. He is so excited to welcome her back home in her new room and the new look of our home.
Vices...some are interesting, some are not good, and some are just fun! I trust people too much, always thinking they mean well. Unfortunately often times (most times) I am disappointed and I get angry...at them, at myself... I need to step back and analyze situations before I jump in with both feet. I need to keep to myself more and not open myself up for target practice so much. I need to do what I can do and move on.
That brings me to peace with neighbors---when I actually can keep to myself at work it seems I have created a reason for people to be nice to me--it's like they wonder what I've been up to, because I'm not saying anything---quite an interesting dilemma. But the only thing I can do is to keep them guessing what I'm up to! The saddest part of that idea is that I have no reason to be up to anything at this school---they are all so self-absorbed--I just don't need any of it! My new retirement date is 3 years away. I only hope I can hold on--and be of service to my students.
Which brings me to the idea of a better year. Yes, this is going to be a great year! Kara will be coming home! It's been a long, difficult commitment on everyone's part, but especially for her. I am so proud of the work she's doing---and I know that her presence there will be felt for generations. I figure she'll be going back--and vicariously I will realize her importance in their lives. I'm just glad that she'll be here again soon.
A better year----I ended 2010 with an incredibly busy spurt--OK it was an incredibly busy year! Fortunately I was able to visit Kara for 3 weeks in the summer---that kept me going---and then sane. Whew! I'm tired....not sure how many weekends it's going to take to catch up. It was a busy year. I promise myself that I am going to enjoy 2011--I am NOT going to spend more time at Fisher than I need to---"pack it up, headin' home" is my new motto. Fortunately my class at SJSU this semester is later so I won't feel like I'm running around like a crazy person---I can breathe a little between jobs :-) nice!
I'd like to (going to) lose some weight---going to try following WWs for a few weeks---and exercise every day. My plan is to walk during prep on M, T, Th and at break on W/F. That may make a difference--if nothing else it will make me get out of the classroom and into the fresh air!
2011---I'll be watching you with great interest! xo
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